Sitting in a lounge in Brooklyn.
August 22 2008 at 6:47 pm | Comments: 0 | Filed in: Uncategorized
I arrived in New York yesterday afternoon. I knew I would be scared or nervous about my new surroundings and situation. I didn’t think I would be so emotional about my departure. But then again, I did just leave my friends, family and a boy who I love. I have high ambitions as most people know, but I can’t help but my decision to go completely across the country.
I really do love New York City and Brooklyn. I love the tall buildings, the unlimited amount of taxis, the noisy subways, the news stands on the side of the streets and most of all the massive amount of people. I’ve never crossed a street with the amount of people that I did earlier this day when I was in Times Square. Part of me still feels like this is a vacation and that I will be returning home shortly, but I know I have 9 months here before I can return home. Time will past fast and slowly at once.
Nights are hard for me. I have extreme panic attacks, I get nervous and antsy and over think every situation in my life. I had one of my worst panic attacks last night. At around 10 PM, I woke up and couldn’t fall back asleep because I realized my situation. I was in a strange huge city and without a certain person that I really cared about. I know it’s hard now. I know it will get easier.
Less than a week until NYC.
August 15 2008 at 2:57 am | Comments: 0 | Filed in: Personal, School
I can’t believe I’m going to New York City. I’ve recently found myself singing New York, New York and when watching a movie, I point at the screen and exlaim too loudly that “I’m going to school there!”
But wouldn’t you be a bit excited? Thrilled? Nervous?
It’s one of the largest cities in the world. The streets are overloaded with ambitious individuals swarming white crosswalks, yellow cabs, electric billboards and dirty vinyl subway seats. Millions of people telling themselves that today will be the day that they will find success. Millions of people completely oriented on meeting their own goals and completing their to do list. I’ve heard that the people there are just as cold as the winters in which they bear. I don’t want to be young and naive, but I can’t help but think that not everyone is bitter and frosty. I don’t know.
If I can make it there, I’ll make it anywhere, right?
A lot of work and nothing done.
August 6 2008 at 2:31 am | Comments: 0 | Filed in: Personal, Projects, Website
Lately my life has been mainly spent working at my part-time job, the local movie theater. When most people work at a movie theater, there job is relatively relaxed. Most theaters pull in a hundred people for a movie. Not our theater. We have five theaters that seat roughly 400 people, and when its busy, those theaters sell out. In addition we have 11 theaters ranging in seating size from 80 to 300. So at any given time we might have 1000 people watching a movie. Part of me loves the fast-paced environment and knowing that I work in one of the largest, most accomplished and distinguished theaters in the country. Another part of me wishes I could find a “real job”, as my dad so decidedly put it. Because I work at least 40 hours a week at bizarre and inconvienent hours, I haven’t been able to work on what I want to: The music site.
I think I’ll start mapping out databases and a final layout draft tonight while I still have some energy. I’m also looking to add some resourceful tutorials or articles for people that might need help or would like to read real content. I know many people have visited my site, mostly friends, but to be honest, I wouldn’t visit my site regularly either. There’s really nothing here.
Plans and more planning.
August 1 2008 at 12:10 am | Comments: 0 | Filed in: Personal, Projects, Website
So, basically, some fool decided to use my wordpress to spam yahoo email. Awesome. I had to scratch my entire installation. But as a result, I ended up recoding my layout, and as simple as this one is, I like it a lot more. I also completed it entirely from scratch instead of using templates as a base. Oddly enough, it was easier to code from scratch than to alter something that already exists. Who would of thought?
In other news, I’m finally an adult. I now have the ability to purchase scratch tickets, vote, use a credit card, smoke a cigarette and die for my country. But I still can’t purchase alcohol. I also have the privilege or working past midnight, which my current place of employment throughly enjoys. I wasn’t able to not work on my birthday to their disappointment, but the following day I stayed until 1:30 AM, cleaning, scrubbing, and yawning. It was fantastic.
In other news, only 20 days until I break out onto the scene in Brooklyn, NY. I’ve been forced to start making lists of items I will need to pack and shop for. I also need to start saving money.
Lastly, I’m still making attempts at securing a successful future prematurely. I really don’t want to wait until after college to make it “big”. So why not try now, when my ambitions are extremely high? I’m working on coding a site, that will be a large combination of Facebook, Pure Volume, and You Tube, all centered around music. No name yet, just partly developed artwork. I’m working on learning the code as well, like mySQL, and jQuery, and I might have to pick up some stuff on Apache. I’m really not sure. It’s quite beyond what I’ve done, and I’m out of practice as it is. Should be a good challenge.
Starting Clean.
July 31 2008 at 10:56 am | Comments: 0 | Filed in: Personal
I’ve decided that I’m not a fan of spammers/hackers/idiots. What’s the point of interfering with someone else’s code other than to cause a large inconvenience? What ever happened to the golden rule?
I’ll explain later.
Focusing on an object or idea may seem quite easy or simple. I dare to disagree. I often find it difficult to allow my mind to become stationary on one topic. Once I grasp that on which I plan to dissect, my mind finds a path connecting the aforementioned object to another one. The paths are limitless, the connections infinite, and on more than one occasion I begin to ask myself “How the hell did I end up thinking about this?”
The design and execution of building this site was much apart of the above process. But lastly, I am done after a few hours of coding and many days of looking at photoshopped designs, and intricately coded Wordpress themes. It’s still in the process of being finalized but it’s a start. I had originally intended to just use this site as a portfolio, but then I considered the possibility of using this site as a way to communicate with the people that I will journey far from in the next month.
I’m making the infamous trek to the Big Apple, or a slightly smaller city next to it, Brooklyn. To be honest, I’m quite scared. But luckily for me, I will be habituating with students similar to myself in ambition, talent and aesthetic interests. Yes, college. Finally out of the public education that blanketed me and kept me entertained for 12 years.
It’s time to make it. Big.
